Zannej, I think I did remember you mentioning your sister. What I'm curious about is how your dad went from zoologist in Guam (& SE Asia?) to question-mark-occupation in rural Loozyana. Also the way you describe your mom sounds like she was pretty awful, maybe borderline or even not-so-borderline abusive, but that your dad was fond of you, so I have trouble understanding why your dad would, upon his passing, sentence you to a life of caring for this woman who was rotten to you and treats you like a servant. Also by extension, having to clean up after a brother who is about 1/6 the maturity he should be for his age (surely your dad noticed). These are mysteries that might not be solved by scientists or philosophers in our time.
Speaking of mysteries, I belonged to an online guitar forum that disappeared a month or so ago. The url just suddenly stopped returning anything. I was getting helpful advice there on this guitar I'm building, so now it feels a bit more like I'm flying by the seat of my pants, and there was nice camaraderie and stuff there too. Because I often forget to turn off my VPN it's hard to sign up for new forums: I'll try and register only to be instantly banned forever because the forum software thinks I'm a Russian spambot based on my ip address or whateverb and it links my mac address too so if I disable the VPN and try again it still won't let me join. Or sometimes they'll let me register but never send me a verification so I can post. Frustrating. There are one or two other guitar forums where I'm pretty sure some of the same regulars are active from the one that disappeared and I could ask those people if they know what happened...if only I could create an account and have it approved!